Stories of 2019 #23: Off Running

On Instagram, I follow and see these amazing women running outside and they look like they are just feeling amazing. And I know, Instagram can sometimes just be someone putting up their best selves and I know that it is only a snippet of someone on a random day but I have been following these women for a long time and I listen to plenty of podcasts about how running makes you feel mentally, amazing.

I used to run two summers ago and I remember doing it often but struggling. I had to keep stopping and I was huffing and puffing but I was out there doing it. When I was doing my Master’s degree, I also signed up to do a 10k in London and even in the cold mornings of February I was doing Park Run around Forest Fields in Nottingham. So, it is not like I have no experience with running but for some reason I was petrified of going back outside and doing it.

Running is simple. One foot in front of the other. It does not matter how fast you are going or if you have to stop and walk or if you even only run for five minutes then turn back. You are out there, running and building strength, doing something good for yourself! I wanted to be that person. But something was holding me back. I even kept Googling, ‘How to start running?’ Like I did not know it was as simple as going out and doing it. I just feared people would look at me funny or I would not be able to manage the route I had planned. However, with over 5 billion results, it looks like I am not the only one. I wonder why running, outside in particular, feels us with such lack of confidence and fear?

But on Monday, 21st January, I made the decision today I was going to run and I set the run time at 10am.

9:50am… The thoughts start to go around in my head… Doubts that I should not go.

10:05am… Still at my house.

10:15am… I stepped out the door, headphones on and the Nike Running Club man motivating me in my ears just to go! If you have not tried this app, it is so good. It is full of guided runs from one minute to a 75 minute run to runs on the treadmill. It is free and I found very helpful when I was out.

10:30am… I was doing it! I was running, OUTSIDE! I was already smiling at the fact I was out and actually running, let alone how far I was running. I did the route I used to do two summers ago and I did not stop once. An achievement I never thought I would be able to do. And, I felt like my favourite Instagram stars, Food Fitness Flora and Adrienne and Bryony Gordon.

When I got home I was beaming so proud that I had done it. I did not even notice the cars going past funnily enough. I was as simple as going out there and putting one foot in front of the other. It was only a short run 3.5k but it was a run and I will be doing it again.

21st January 2019 // My first run

So, if you are nervous to start running my advice is, instead of being like me and Googling how to’s – just do it. In the wise words of Nike! Even if it is to the end of the road. Trust me you will feel great just because you went.

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